(no Swedish today)
It's true, it just struck me, status check, yes indeed, we've survived January, are almost through half of February and just this once it is apparent that the Light is returning, though of course being me, I would have preferred a faster rate
Hibernation mostly for 2012 so far, and trying to get Time to pass and NOT succumb to Winter Blues, survive this horrid period. Think the Winter Blues were truly a threat this year with everything that has been going on at work and all, but ..after what has been one of the most chaotic, topsy turvy, surrealistic two weeks in a VERY long time at work, everything suddenly changed for me. Last week - yep. Changed, I'll tell you.
My journey has been slow, puttering on for almost two years now, with a deep dissatisfaction on how things were handled, managed, lack of development plans, goals, anorectic organisations, how a change crept in where the good interesting stuff just got scarser,....and for me, the slow pace of realizing this and being able to reflect on this, has also made me undertake a personal journey and draw my own conclusions. One of my biggest underlying problems was then...that I was alone in seeing this and understanding it, and I didn't realize this until last week, this was why no one could see what I did as they hadn't undertaken the journey. Since there are so many new changes ( past two months really), all of a sudden, there is a wake-up call for my colleagues and they are now on my path though travelling at a much faster pace. And, they will reach a point fairly soon where they will either accept and adjust, or protest and remain, or...leave. It is truly turbulent and painful for them, and I feel so sorry about this, as I cannot do much to help.
My desicion is made, was made, more than a year ago, and it is like I watch and feel a deep contentment that I've come so far, and that the turbulence doesn't involve me. I'm something of a spectator...not a player.
And that is a GOOD realisation. And I haven't laughed so much last week at work for years and years.
Yes...LAUGHTER. Hilarious topsy turvy horrid happenings and yet stuff of sitcoms and comic series, we should really put up some cameras. And agony and tears and emotional outbursts and a lot of anger.
Oh and I've done a lot of knitting lately..but that's stuff for other blog posts.